All eyes might be on Nick Knowles when he seems on this yr’s I am A Movie star. And regardless of being a well-liked presenter, the 56-year-old has had a attempting few years following his break up from spouse Jessica Rose. In 2017, while finalising his divorce, Nick took half in his first solo interview with HELLO!, which occurred on the gorgeous new family-friendly resort of Kandima within the Maldives. “We have tried a number of occasions to get again collectively, however irrespective of how a lot you like somebody, when you’ve burned some bridges, it’s extremely troublesome to rebuild them,” he defined in Might 2017. “I am at a stage now the place, if Jess discovered any person who sorted her and made her glad, I would be glad for her.”
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Nick and Jessica Rose, whom he wed in September 2012, introduced their separation in January 2016. Regardless of their finest efforts to provide their nine-year relationship one other likelihood, the couple – who’re dad and mom to four-year-old son Eddie, have sadly accepted it is over. “Oh, it could damage, after all it could,” he conceded. “However when you really love somebody, you need the perfect for them. If that features you, that’s great; if it doesn’t, effectively, you continue to need that for them.” It was Nick who instigated their break up, a call that Jessica later advised HELLO! had “blindsided” her.
“I will maintain my fingers up and say I acquired some issues incorrect, however I’ll by no means cease caring for Jessica,” mentioned Nick. “She’s probably the most stunning individual with the largest coronary heart and I remorse very a lot a number of the issues which have occurred and the actual fact we have not been capable of make it work. Nevertheless it’s time to maneuver on.” That is the primary time Nick has spoken so overtly in regards to the breakdown of his marriage and it’s clear it is not one thing that sits comfortably with him. His coping mechanism has all the time been to bury himself in work and he has invited hiya! to the Maldives to speak a few new enterprise: the launch of a yoga and wellness retreat he’s fronting on the not too long ago opened Kandima Maldives, a brand new family-friendly resort, the place our unique photoshoot takes place.
The enterprise is a chance that took place after a stress-related well being scare two years in the past, which noticed Nick looking for assist at a retreat in Thailand. This life-changing expertise was documented on the BBC2 present The Retreat; it additionally introduced him into contact with internationally famend yoga teacher and mindfulness coach Luke Bache, who might be internet hosting 4 week-long retreats with Nick at Kandima. However Nick, who has by no means achieved a shoot like this on his personal earlier than and acknowledges that he is been “past nervous” about it, is aware of questions on his private life are inevitable.
His and Jessica’s relationship began to disintegrate after the household relocated to Spain in 2015, in the hunt for a much less tense way of life. “Eddie had a troublesome winter with chest issues and, as Jessica speaks Spanish and loves the outside, I believed the change in local weather can be good for them,” revealed Nick, who additionally has three grown-up youngsters, sons Charles and TJ and daughter Tuesday. A self-confessed workaholic, Nick, who along with his DIY SOS staff had simply taken on the present’s most bold Large Construct, remodeling a road in Manchester to supply properties for ex-service personnel, figured he may commute to and from the UK.
“However I used to be spinning so many plates, there’s no two methods about it, I finished going house sufficient – and after I did go house, I began to get annoyed that I wasn’t getting the welcome I used to be anticipating,” he shared. “I’ve all the time thought of my major position is to supply – it’s one thing I inherited from my late dad, who I idolised. He suffered a stroke and within the final months of his life, I let him down by not being there, as a result of I couldn’t bear to resist the actual fact the sickness had modified him. I’ve spent the previous 20 years attempting to make that as much as him by taking up that supplier position for the individuals I like. However what I failed to understand with Jessica was that the great home, the approach to life, none of that meant something to her if I wasn’t along with her. What she needed was for us to be a household.”
He added: “The extra we argued about it, the extra resentful I grew to become that I wasn’t feeling appreciated and the extra resentful I grew to become, the much less I went house. Ultimately, we had been making each other so sad, I couldn’t see an answer aside from to interrupt up.” What the couple didn’t realise was that Jessica was pregnant, one thing that solely got here to gentle when she suffered a miscarriage. Nick was in Thailand on the time, filming The Retreat, however flew straight again to be along with her. “There was no query about the place I wanted to be,” he mentioned.
Since then, Jessica has confronted a collection of devastating well being blows, together with cervical most cancers and sepsis, the latter of which she was advised she solely survived as a result of she is younger and match. She has credited Nick with being there for her. He, in flip, is in awe of how robust she has been. “She’s unimaginable,” he famous. “And as a mom to my son, who has simply introduced a lot pleasure into my life, I couldn’t want for anybody higher.” He regrets deeply the damage he brought about when photographs of him cosying as much as cleaning soap star Gemma Oaten after a TV awards ceremony in 2016, despite the fact that he was single on the time. “Just a few days earlier, I’d dropped Jessica house after a date night time and mentioned to her, ‘What are we doing right here? I feel we each know we’re meant to be collectively.’ She advised me I used to be boastful for making that assumption and as she slammed the automotive door shut, I sat again and I believed, ‘Okay, sufficient now,'” he revealed.
“So being a proud bloke, I went out and I met somebody and look, while I want with all my coronary heart that it hadn’t occurred the way in which it did, it was a lesson realized and the essential factor now’s to maneuver on with kindness and respect for the individuals I like. Jessica has mentioned herself that we tried all the pieces to make it work and we did. If I’m utterly trustworthy, if I had my means we’d nonetheless be attempting,” he continued. “To me it’s like this: in case you have a fantastic figurine that your mom left you and also you break it and glue it again collectively, do the cracks make it any much less stunning to you? However I’ve to respect that, for Jessica, the harm is finished.”
Final yr, Nick offered the shifting two-part documentary Thoughts Over Marathon, which adopted a staff of novice runners with psychological well being points as they competed within the London Marathon for Heads Collectively, the charity spearheaded by the Duke and Duchess of Cambridge and Prince Harry. He then went straight again into filming a brand new collection of DIY SOS, the present he has offered for the previous 18 years. When requested if he can see himself discovering love once more? “I’m one among life’s romantics, so I’ve to consider that may occur,” he replied. “As a companion, I’d say that 90 per cent of the time I’m fairly good. I’m caring, romantic, spontaneous. I’ve made errors however I don’t consider in wanting again. You must preserve shifting forwards and each Jessica and I’ll try this with an incredible quantity of affection in our hearts.”
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